heart hurts

I don’t know where our friendship went

Something very fragmentary


When the cat jumped ship her bowl hit the ground with an earth-shattering whisper. It actually started before the concert. There in the street. Ten bucks. Grateful circle at the Palace. The cracks had formed some months before, with the jester by the river when she banged her knee. She had dove right in and the coldness was so refreshing. She just didn’t figure it out, did not even think about the significance. It was like magic.

Mage Sage

And then so many more strange things happened. But we can only tell so much of the story at one. once

Strangeness and Charms.

All the world’s a stage; the men and women merely players.

I have a difficult time coming up with my own words. I used to be able to talk to myself, but most of the time cannot anymore. A few very very strange things have happened to me recently. I remember, I hear, and I see. What a long, strange trip its been. I have leaned so much. I was afraid, and am learning to overcome the fear. I have been told many strange things, by many strange people. I have a difficult time making up my mind.


I think that perhaps the Universe is telling me something. Well, actually I know this for sure.  e  i kk It was very very scary though. I apparently have (had? ) a VERY low tolerance to q The Human Condition


I might need to listen to more different music.

Something maybe funny happened to my brain. I remember it clearly. Almost. It had to do with some really cool cats, some Beloved teachers, leaders, followers; excellent Medicine,a Messenger on a tightrope, a Gloworm, a bunch of High Noble Warriors,a Rebellion or three,  quite a few Fires, Life and a Dragon. With a little dash of Humor thrown in for good measure. It was all very very VERY weird. (Yes, I admit it)  

There are two rules for success succeeding in this world. 1~ Never tell everything you know. 


The future is looking bright. 


Aloha Aku No


Moon day. Full moon. pink moon. fish moon. setting grass moon. 

Blood moon. Total lunar clips. 

Grand Cross, Passover, Easter, Ostra, 420 and EarthDay

And, of course, Spring Fever.

Can you feel it in the air? 

Just to be alive right now is so amusing, and frightening. 

Mars retrograde as well…….




I think I’ll go consult One Eye’d Jack!


step throat

DO NOT let your immune system get so low that you cant fight off a measly little  Streptococcal A infection (without penicillin [maybe I should have eaten moldy bread?])!


It might just be my rest button, if it doesn’t kill me, and I do not presume to assume it will.


What day should I celebrate the white Sabbath on? And, conversely, how many blacks?


Nonsense nonsense nonsense!







I Believe

I believe in the good things coming. I believe in You. I believe in Us. In power, in trust, in love.

I do believe that we are so provided for. We have everything we need, sometimes we just have to look a little harder. I believe in words. I believe that everything is connected.  The sun, the moon and the stars. In family. That life is what you make of it, and its at least 75% luck. We do get what we deserve, eventually. Forgive. Each other and ourselves. I believe that some animals and plants actually domesticated people. I do not truly believe we as humans are the superior species. I believe that the more you know the crazier you look. I believe that some things change. and some things don’t. I believe that moderation is the secret to life. We really cannot have it all. We need to share. I believe it takes a village to raise a child. I believe in the power of our minds and bodies, if we take care of them. And if we are going to live together there must always be compromises.

A wise person once said that, “Even if something is not true, that doesn’t mean I can’t believe in it.”

I believe in what I know. Deep in my soul. Change your perspective; change your mind. Sometimes.

I believe that we can have many soulmates. and mates and partners. Honest communication is so important.

I believe in ME, and YOU, and in The Great Whatamahui WhatdoyoucallitThing. Love

All we need is love, and we can get by with a little help from our friends. God willin’ and the creek don’t rise.

We are blessed, and lucky.


Blind as a bat

fresh pasture raised cage free organic. I like these eggs.

Whale, well, w’ale, what have we here?

I thought I’d try the time slip / mind flip, see whats goin on over here.

Life is incredible FUCKING in’tents and holy bat shit weird.

I mostly like it.

farm life revolves (sometimes around shit)

those who feed me are my favorites.

I get by, with a little bit of help from my friends

and all we need is love, really. sleep helps also.

I love, i am great full.

Aloha ke Akua

and I really do like bats



I gotta work on my dosage. I dont always get it w’right.


If you want to get to heaven you gotta raise a little hell.


I did put it down. I can stop



What a day, Cortizon is a bitch. I got a few problems, and bitches are two of them,

I got the good stuff.


About 420 cubic inches drilled out of rock solid pahoehoe.


Filled up with an old wood post. 


orbital nerves hurt






goods thing I dont have to have a title first

I don’t like labels, as a word or two does not encompass a whole thing.

Last week sucked so bad, but it was quite the learning experience.  Sometimes we dont use the proper words. Even I. Words are powerful. If you can truly say (write, sing, whatever) what you actually mean, others might understand you. Maybe.

I wonder what’s going to happen next? This has been my manta lately. It is true. I do indeed wonder what is going to happen next. Maybe wonder at. I like now too, i also like the anticipation.  An-tis-i-pation. Maddness takes it toll…..

it is difficult to live in the na`au

I love you. I like to express my love with feeding you. Some people just arn’t hungry. hmmmm…………….

I love you. I love the way you look. look at life. look at me. I love the way you move. Gracefully, forcefully, silently, horonably. I like the way you talk. to others, to me. When you talk to me you sometimes remember I hear things differently. All y’all are such a blessing. thank you for being.

there’s something happenin here

its a two dog night.

but not really

Im not sure if Im going crazy or becoming sane.

I always get what I want. Change your mind

that’s not what I was looking for


why does it hurt?

letter d and green eyes


blue ice

guru :

The syllable gu means shadows
The syllable ru, he who disperses them,
Because of the power to disperse darkness
the guru is thus named.

— Advayataraka Upanishad 14—18, verse 5


is that really the proper word?